Goodreads & Badreads

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I logged onto my Goodreads account today after a hiatus of what feels like months. As the page loaded on my laptop, my eyes flew to the part of the right hand bar labelled ‘2015 Reading Challenge’ and with dismay I read in smaller print, ‘14 books behind schedule‘.

How judgmental is that? In fairness, I asked Goodreads to help me with this challenge and the fact is, I am far behind the already amended 50 book goal for this year. I started 2015 with the idea of smashing 75 but then I realised even I, the ultimate homebody, have a life.

I don’t know how I ended up shipwrecked without a book for so long. Well, that’s not strictly accurate, I suppose. I did have a book on the go and it halted me in its tracks. Do you want to know who I’m blaming for my currently reader’s block? Sarah Waters.

I should preface this accusation with the fact she is one of my all time favourite writers. I’d never picked up a book of hers that didn’t tip me straight into whichever world she was illustrating at the time. The Little Stranger is without question one of the scariest, most gripping books I’ve ever held in my hands. In fact, they’ve all been exceptionally good… and then came The Paying Guests.

I just haven’t been able to get into it and I don’t understand. The lead up has been tedious. It’s certainly well written and everyone I know who’s read (and finished) it has told me the same thing: “Hang in there and then you won’t be able to put it down”. But when godammit?

I’ve tried so many times to pick it up, I’ve even tried listening to Juliet Stevenson read it to me on YouTube as I work and still it plods on. When will it get good?

It pains me not to finish a book, even one I’m not into, more so when people are telling me it’s brilliant. What if I miss out? What if it is the best book I’ve ever read after the first 500 (it feels like) pages? Argh.

So then I thought, maybe if I read something trashy it’ll reignite my reading fires, and make me want to reach for something great. So I bought Grey in Sainsbury’s for a few quid and it’s made the whole situation worse.

I’ve read the trilogy. I’ve seen the film. I’m not what you’d call a massive fan of either, though I don’t regret any of the time spent on it. I like to be up to date culturally but honestly, enough has got to be enough already, no? Who cares what Christian Grey thinks? Who cares how he justifies his actions to the reader? I’ll review it properly when I’ve finished but for now it’s just another book I’m not looking forward to reading at night.

I know I’ll come through this. I know the next story I read will change things and then I can get back into reviewing books and loving books that way I always have. And then maybe Goodreads can get the hell off my back for a while.

My To Read pile is almost as tall as me but if you have any recommendations, they’re always welcome! Bring them on.

8 thoughts on “Goodreads & Badreads

    • Hmmmmmm… okay!

      Church of Marvels – Leslie Parry
      Burial Rites – Hannah Kent
      The Ice Queen – Alice Hoffman
      A Girl is a Half Formed Thing – Eimear McBride
      Carol – Patricia Highsmith

      Those are the ones I most want to tackle next x

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  1. I too am struggling to read at the moment. I haven’t been able to find anything that has sucked me in for ages. And I have come to the conclusion that – life is too short to finish books you don’t enjoy.
    A few recommendations from me though:
    We Were Liars by E. Lockhart
    The Girl Who Chased The Moon by Sarah Addison Allen
    The Secret Lives Of Dresses by Erin Mckean

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  2. Sarah Waters, noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! Why have you forsaken us???
    It’s the worst when you stumble across a bad book by an author you’re really into. LOVE Michael Chabon, but I read…MAYBE 50 pages of Telegraph Avenue before I had to quit.
    I’ve been a bad reader lately too. Right now I’m reading a fantasy that I think is going to turn into a romance novel. The Witch of Painted Sorrows, which so far is about a witch in the late 19th c. who wants to go to art school in Paris. Ha ha, she keeps fantasizing about painting this one guy naked and describing his eyes. More black than green. The color of moss. The color of pine. I kind of love it, honestly. I’ve been reading really serious non-fiction books lately and my brain needs some candy.
    Also agree with the above that We Were Liars keeps the pages turning without getting too teen angsty.

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    • Thank you Jill! I will look into that too. I know, I am very disappointed but maybe it’s a good thing, maybe the next one she writes will be every kind of wonderful because I’m not expecting anything due to the last one? God I hope she wins me back, she’s always been the writer I would most like to be like. Dammit, Waters, get a grip!

      Love a bit of candy every now and again! xoxo

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  3. May I suggest you give a book of short stories a go? Because I’ve felt too unfocused to sit down with a good book lately, I’ve been reading lots of lit mags and they’re so wonderful and underrated as a form, plus low commitment! I’m reading Eliza Robertson’s collection Wallflowers (she’s from Vancouver, now lives in East Anglia) and I also think you might like Alison Moore – she has a collection of stories called The Pre-War House.

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    • Ooooh, yes you may suggest that, Em! That actually makes perfect sense. I quite like authors like Stephen King who sometimes explore that format, such a good idea. I will put Alison Moore on my list. Thank you lovely girl. I’ll be back on form soon, have had such amazing feedback from all my fellow bookworms on this post! xoxo

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